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2008-01-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

2 weeks into the Emergency Response Specialists Course and im feeling the toughness..wondering that many have gone thru the course n passed out as sergeants keep pushing me to my limits..sometimes i feel like giving up..sometimes i feel that im not fit for this course..n the first person i go to when i feel down n out is my gf..she keep me going n pushing me all this while..she knows wats best for me n i guess i might as well listen to her evrytime i feel down..next would be my ERS mates..they always motivate me when times are hard..they take the time to motivate me even tho they themselves are feeling the same throughout the training..2 weeks have gone in the course..n i have another 22 more weeks to go.. this is truely a challenge of one's physical n mental strength..more of mental strength that is..so i'll just continue to pray to Allah to give me the strength to go thru this course..

sweets have been very nice to me during my national service coz she know im tired n out evrytime i book out..she knows that i don nd the scoldings n evrything..she's just the best gf i've ever had..i will never let her go even if something stands in our way..i love her soo much n im missing her more as each n evry week comes coz i have to book in n stay in for 5 days before i see her on friday..this have been a very tough experience for our relationship n i hope we will get thru this together k sweets? im missing u soo much! muah!!

* u take care of urself this week ok bie..u'll always be on my mind evry nite bie..don forget me okay? have a gd week bie..muah! love u!!

2008-01-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

GOODBYE WORLD! GOODBYE EVERYONE! GOODBYE FRIENDS!! GOODBYE FAMILY! GOODBYE GIRLFRIEND!!!

tmr..the fateful 8th of january..the enlistment act says... You, MUHAMMAD RAMDAN BIN JAMALUDIN, hereby required to report for full-time National Service at Civil Defence Academy at Jalan Bahar!!

wooohooo!! how sad that may be to some..but to me..im all excited n ready to go get myself good civil defence skills!! this is one in a lifetime experience dat many cant enjoy..yet! hahaha...i hope that this will be enriching for me..all the skills that im gonna learn n all!

to my frens!! yea..all of u r gonna be missed!! i will try to see all of u when im out of camp orite...!!

to my family!! don worry..i'll be fine..as always..

to my one n only girlfriend, Nurasilah Shahzan, u'll always be on my mind..aways..don worry okay..i'll be fine serving the nation..will still get to see on on weekends..! so yah..u'll be missed absolutely!! ur pics will serve as fond memories for me okay?!! i love u!

orite..so i will take off to CDA early tmr morning! c U all around soon aite!!

take care! especially u sweetS!!!

2008-01-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

checking in: 7:43 pm

this i gotta say.. I GOT 6 MORE DAYS before im serving my term..hahaha!! that term to be held at Jalan Bahar.. a popular place called Civil Defence Academy..yes yes..the one behind and infront got cemetery dat one..u know rite..only one bus go there..172..haha..sounds creepy but yah..at least its inland..not on any offshore island..hahahaha!!

i've bought all the stuffs required for a smelly man goin to NS..all the documents ready..yah..u can say im ready but im not!! im not ready to leave my loved ones behind..my family,cuzzins,frens n the one n only, Nurasilah..hahaha...maybe these last few days can help me be fully prepared..

sweets still havent got a job yet..maybe i know the reason why u havent got a job yet..haha.. becoz..ur too CEREWET!! keje la pizza hut dulu ke..ramen ten ke..thai express ke..FnB la..easier to get...no nd experience n qualifications..hahaha...if u go dat route..u wont have to worry not having a job when im in NS...hahaha

today was the start of the new academic year..me n sweets went to marina sq to walk ard n we had a breeze! there's like very little pple seyy..so shiok!! hahaha.. im trying to spend the rest of the days left with sweets and my family coz i'll be long gone soon...so i hope we can spend much valuable time together!! woohoo!!

till then..so long n goodnite!!!

checking out: 7:52 pm

2007-12-10T08:53:00.000+08:00

checking in:8.55am

i've accomplished what many others have not or wouldnt have tried..the full marathon!! that's rite...42.195km of running and walking thru pain, sprain, cramps, abrasions...yes i regretted running it when i reach the turning point at bedok jetty which is only 26km...luckily for me..there's hafiz waiting for me..he also suffered the same as me..haha..amirul was not far behind..so we walked till the esplanade n with a final push we managed to end the daunting race at a time of 8 hrs 12 mins...so yah..we got the shirt that we wanted n the ultimate undeniable sense of satisfaction.. yes..this race is for only people who are crazy minded to even say run for fun!! haha... I AM A FINISHER OF THE DAMN 42.195KM!! woohoo!!

ytd had my sec sch's soccer testimonial match...7 generations of bishan park soccer players came down to say our final gdbye to MR ANISTINO, who will be continuing his studies at perth with a possibility if staying there..so yeah...we had fun despite the loss..haha..

well after the whole thing..what happened was unthinkable..it wasnt in my plans really..n yah..my hands moved themselves.my mouth was outta control..my mind was telling me to go for the kill...but there's one thing in my being that told me to relax...yes dear..my heart told me to sabar n not do anymore of those things..ur tears moved me..ur soul reached me..i hope we wont have to go thru that shameful episode in our re;ationship anymore okay..i love u..muuah!!

anw..the rustling of the leaves still scares me till now..haha..damn that thing on top seh..salah time..mesti die eavesdrop kan!!!

checking out: 9.03am

2007-12-01T14:40:00.000+08:00

A lvls is officially over..it is officially outta my life..hahaha!! woohooo!! weeheee!! now i'm left with only 1 month to enjoy before i pack my bags n stuffs n head to CDA..yeap..u got it rite..im goin to NS in 1 month ++ time..luckily..no forests for me..it's just fires n hoses n water n injections n rhinos in red and many more..hahah!! so looking forward to it..n knowing dat i will get paid dat's a bonus..haha..looks like salleh will be joining me..

now i hope sweets will get a job soon coz i dowan her to be lonely at home when im serving the nation..yeap..i'll find werk for u k dear..don worry..u will get work soon..hehe..try harder ok to get the job u prefer..last resort..pizza hut!! hahaha...i've been trying to find 1 month werk but thinking back like useless coz i will get money thru NS oso..so yeap..if i get a job den good.if not then its okay..heheh

anw..tmr is the marathon day!!! 42.195 km!! i dono if i could finish it. sweets, pray for me okay..hope i'll come out fine..heheh..

anw sweets..i miss u soo much.cant wait to see u later okay..wear nice2 tau..i love u!! muah muah!!

2007-10-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

30 days fasting..took off some of my weight but not the belly..hahah...nvm..NS shall do dat for me..
anw..skipped school today to help grannie with the cooking and cleaning..haha..this is the only time where my hse will be at its cleanest!! hahaha...

this raye...is my last time getting the ever-so-tempting hari raya $$$..haha..and i shall feel the burden of giving money to the young ones when i start my NS nx year...hahah..even tho the raya feeling is not like wat it used to be..exams maybe the cause..haha..i still will celebrate it like evry year!! eat non-stop..
ANW...WATCH SURIA TONITE AT 10 PM..Sinar Lebaran...!!!

after raya..2 more freaking weeks to the ultimate A LEVELS...hahaha..i cant believe im here taking A levels...the feeling is like...finally im ending school formally..but still i nd to produce the results la..haizz...

anw..got my National Service Enlistment notice oreadi...i am hereby required to report to the Singapore Civil Defence Force on 8 January 2008!! hahah...so happy i got CD la..dream come true for me...wish me all the best!!

sweets is goin away to melaka to celebrate hari raya there..sobz sobz...i was hoping that she would not go kampong this yr..but wat to do..parents overule evrything...hope she manage to sneak herself out of this n stay in Singapore..pls pls pls!! DON GO AWAY!! :'( i'll miss u sweets!! love u soo much! muaaahh!!!

2007-08-26T10:07:00.000+08:00

OKEY!! i'm back!! fuhh.. 2 months not updating..i feel not updated seh.. okey2..first things first okey..

*things dat happened in the past 2 months since i updated.hehe [not in sequence]
1)had my mid years...screwed it..FFC
2)got involved in AWANG BELANGA '07...haha..credit goes to evryone involved..:))
3)had 1st sheesha trip with the gang..haha..[now i know the bad side of evryone!! whahah]
4)been sad lately to the start man utd made..but..i know they can do it! glory glory man utd!!
5)slacking cum trying hard to get the momentum going towards As..ouh man...
6)had my 26th months tgt with my one n only sweetheart,NURASILAH BINTE SHAHZAN BIN OMAR!! wakakka!

*things dat will be happening in the next few months!! [in case i din update!!]
1)obviously on top of the list is A lvls..haiz.don wanna talk abt it...
2)hope to make it thru this year with asilah..we can do it okey bie..hehe
3)hope to find werk after As..not gonna grow myself any bigger..hahah..im 80kg now
4)hope to have my moto serviced...if have enuf money..go for repair la..cant stand the scratches..hehe
5)....

soo..there's much that has happened n much more to come in life...hehe..n thinking abt NS nx yr n leaving small little asilah behind in the jungle of pple n concrete..haizz...why din it come earlier...anw..ytd went out with the gang..but before that..went to vivo with asilah coz she want donuts!! haha..den went to one fullerton n sat at starbucks the whole afternoon n den waited for the arrival of dee n syarif.haha..they took ages seh to reach..haha..den we went to mkn den go back la..haha..lazy la want tell evrything.hahaa

anw sweets, i know it's been a turmoil week for us both..i know now y u say those things..why u not being urself in front of me..why u don trust me..well..i've thought abt it ytd..n now i know wat to do..i want to change n don tell me don okey..im changing for u..hope u understand k bie..love u n miss u soo much rite now..i know ur sleeping..hahah. n u wont wake up till 12..so i'll wait for u k dear..muax! let's make it 3 okey! tk tau apesal 3..tanye okey..

okey folks..till next time..have a nice day!!

~dandan~

2007-06-22T11:02:00.000+08:00

FEAR!!!!!!!

yes..fear is all looming in me rite now..haha..no time for regrets watsoever..the fact is clear.. [freaking] MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS is..trust me with this..NEXT WEEK!! :(..fun,laughter and evrything associated with happiness is all over for the next 2 weeks n all the weeks after dat till the A thing is over..

HAHAHA! tell me wat is life? THERE'S NO LIFE when ur a guy and living in Singapore..GOONS!! evrything is virtually planned out for you..i guess this is my lifepath..take As den go NS..which im at least looking forward to..hope i get POLICE.."i'm with the force!"..hehe..after NS..werk non stop then get enuf money and at the appropriate time n place..get married..HOPEFULLY la..

den work n work n play n play..retire oreadi..haiz...wats so fun abt life as a male citizen in a non-forgiving country like Singapore..haha...there's times when evrything seems fun and fine..but the fact is u cannot run from responsibilities.its gonna haunt u ur whole life la kan..haiz...wat to do..

its all fear..yes..no one in singapore is very obtimistic abt the future..i suppose..evrything we do..there's risk..there's fear in us..haiz..well..hope things will go thru for the better in the future.any suggestions? hehe..:)

*dear..ilu n imu...hehe...hope to see u soon..:):):)

2007-05-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

fooh! fooh! fooh! cobwebs evrywhere..been months since i blog eh..ahaha..ouh well...wat have been happening eh this past month..hmm...sports day [cheerleading champs,4x100m-1st,4x400m-2nd] :)...happily turned nineteen on 7h May 2007...hahah...a month has passed since i got my bike..celebrated 23rd monthsary with sweets..heheh..well dats just a round up of wat happened dis past month...

ytd..i went with asilah to watch the opening of the singapore arts festival at the padang!! it was entertainment at its loudest n spectaculest!! hahah...had fun watching the wheel of steel with humans in it doin acrobats spinning the wheel...n the finale..36 local talents trained with the Spanish acrobats in just 2 days to put up an aerial display of fine acrobatic movements..they were suspended in the air n the main attention was on them doin the aerial giant human net!! it was nice i tell ya..for pics pls do visit www.magicalfaerydust.blogdrive.com!!]

i know sweets enjoyed it soo much coz she was so fully engrossed with the show..but at the same time..shocked by the loud music..it was the best arts festival opening i've seen...next will be Dikir Kita at Raffles City on 4 June..7pm..gotta watch..n also Gentarasa 2007..dats a must watch!! lets watch it together k sweets!! hehehe..

*11 days left syg..heheh..hope be fun!! heheh...miss u sweets! muax!

2007-04-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

ehem..went out with asilah syg ytd..it was our 22nd..HAPPY 22ND MONTHSARY!! n her birthday's in like 3 days!!! i better do something kan? kan? kan? hahah...there's so many questions in my head..should i do this? should i do that? where should we go? wat should i say? i just want to make it a memorable birthday for her..am i pushing too hard on myself? tell me if i am k syg...:))

yesterday went to vivo..spent 11 DOLLAS at candy empire.syg got herself a wonka bar n jelly beans[her fav] while i got a limited edition snickers caramel bar!! n some sugar strips thingy[cant buy the gummies coz got gelatine..fuck!!]hahah...den went to harbourfront centre to have late lunch at mcdonald's..[in love with the wedges!!] ehehheh..after dat..went to marina bay..syg was quite wary of goin there..she was asking me wat if there's no one here n all those kind of stuffs...well..i wouldnt wanna go there again unless im equipped with a vehicle...okey asilah?? den we went to look at the ferri's wheel!! its big i tell u..wanna ride it one day..okey syg? after dat we went to funan to have ya kun kaya toast..long time since i had dat..den we went home..its a good day..thanks for it k dear..LOVE YA!!

*cant wait to give ur present!! hope u'll like it..i'll give u a clue..it's white..!! eheheh

Love,
Dandan....

2007-04-01T17:30:00.000+08:00

hey...im back..kinda long since i last updated my blog..been busy lately.. u know..A lvls this year..A divs..trainings..matches..homeworks..its all packing up..first..let me clean this place up..cobwebs evrywhere..heheh...

okey..first things first..rugby been up n down lately..don know wat to comment abt recent matches..the team got lots to work on these last two weeks of preparation before the A divs come to haunt us again.i trust the team..i trust the players to do well..we nd to concentrate on or strengths but not leave our weaknesses behind..we gotta work on it team..we got LOTS to do..!!

next..the mcs yr 3s have stepped down! well..all those moments will be long gone unless...hmm..hehe..anw..thanks evryone..no nd mentioning names coz evryone means evryone who got their asses in mcs..yeah..heheh..thanks!

hmm..ytd..i had a good talk with asilah dear..guess the curfew period is up eh? i'm so gonna miss u seh..heheh..but maybe ur parents meant well..we gotta take it in our stride okey?? heheh...thanks for the talk ytd n the nite we spent at jurong..heheh..i love u!! muax!!

guess that's the latest happennings abt me..will update more frequently okey? hehe..take care peeps out there..may Allah bless watever u do..peace out!

~dandan~

2007-02-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

what an eventful week..

first..Happy Chinese New Year to all my cheena frens..secondly...this long weekend has made me relax my mind abit from all the stress of COMMON TEST..yes..common test..hahahah...its kinda funny..i got F for chem, O for maths and C for accounts..well..some subjects improved..others remained..dat means i gotta put in more effort..and hard work of course..well..i want to do well in A levels...hope i do get the grades that i want..Insya Allah...

went sentosa with love juz now..hahah..tot of taking the shuttle..but the queue's long..then tot of taking the sentosa express (monorail)..again..its damn pack..the whole 3rd lvl of vivo city was full of people queueing for the train..so we decided to walk..haha..walk n walk..then we took the yellow line to palawan beach..swam for abt 90 mins lidat n went off to vivo back and ate BK..i saw a lion dance performance..haha..love was scared to death when the lion came her way..hahah...i pulled her back n she was running away from me..n the lion..i laughed n so does evryone around us..hahah..im sorry love..now i understand ur fear..hahah...MUAX!! i love u!!

enjoyed the day today..hahah..went JP after that n walked around..ate a little n went home..heheh..gd day aite..c u guys ard in sch!! taaddaaa!!

2007-02-03T16:10:00.000+08:00

i'm at the library @ tfcc with love..hehe..at least i can get online outside..hahah..or else no use having this lappie with me..ahaha..nx week's common test! ahaahhhh!! im so not ready to be testeed on topics that's gonna be tested seh...im dead i guess? but i wont give up..no way!!

had a gd time ytd with love..altho got quarrel abit2..but dats normal i guess..i learned to control my temper rite now..after listening to "syarahan" at the radio evry morning...kinda good la..ahah..anw..passed my Riding Theory Test just now morning..hahaha...its fun when u pass..gonna have Revision Circuit tmr..and also Prac 5.02..circuit assessment..hope i'll pass that..insyaAllah...den can apply for PDL oreadi..woohooo!!

well..gonna try to study for common test ah..no play2 oreadi..c evryone in sch on monday for GP paper..hahah..tataa!!!

*kisses n hugs!!!

2007-01-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

3 weeks into school year..hmm..kinda tough u know...A lvls dis yr..hard to get used to having hmwk like evryday ah!!! argh...well chemistry n accounts goin on well..more to work on maths n GP...well school insists on us learning another language n so i took chinese..something conneced to the rise of China from the Time Magazine..well..school will never get any easier for me...

love fell sick today..complaining to me dat she's sick n can't attend sch tmr..hahah..begged her to come n i'll take care of her..wakkaak..hopefully she'll be fine..insya Allah...missing her rite now i guess...hehehe...hope u can read dis dear..muax!

rugby training been all physical..running n body work n more running...game against ACS(I) this saturday..kinda got the guys fired up for it..to prove themselves..heheh...well..gd luck for me..

guess dats all i have to say...just wanna wish amirul well...get out of hospital quick!! hahahah...saturday singapore vs malaysia!!!

2007-01-02T19:15:00.000+08:00

after an eventful 2006...here comes 2007..
well..what should i expect? lots of excitement? homework? [haha definitely]..
lots n lots of activities even thought i'm in year 3...n the first thing that comes to mind is *A LEVELS*...
hahahah..yah..can't afford to laugh it off now...coz it's coming to get me.. no place to hide..no place to run..i've gotta face it n live with it..hahhaa...

well..hopefully my frens n i will make it thru this year w/o much problems coz it's a very very short year...

n asilah dear...we've gotta work hard okey? no playing ard anymore..hahahah...promise me okey?

well 2007...here we come...

*resolutions for the new year? hmm...

2006-12-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

"PINANG DIBELAH DUA"

A comment made by this uncle on the streets when he saw me and asilah..hahaha!!
my feelings? shocked...blur~~! (coz i dono d meaning at first,was trying to figure out) haha..wells..wat can i say..we both wore colours that was not planned...GREY!! haha..maybe that contributes to d uncle commenting..well..THANKS to the uncle..whoever he is..really appreciate it..

had a great time with love ytoday...finally she has one day with me...Allah answered ur prayers i guess..hahaha!! anw..i'll see u tmr syg..love ya!! muax! to evryone...gdnite!

2006-12-24T14:29:00.000+08:00

well..khatulistiwa is over..evrything's over..back to studying..
gonna promised myself not to play dikir anymore until my results r of good standard for a lvls..
so..yah..im gonna stop playing dikir for this year i hoped..
and since yesterday..i've no mood to play dikir anymore after i realised something..

both MI teams lost..so its okey guys..we had fun..nevermind those in the dark shouting criticisms at us.. the main thing..we lasted the journey to this comp..we didnt back down even when there are so little pple in trainings..wat pple have to say..let them say..we did wat we can..

congrats to both teams..anja digma n emas..we know we ain't good..but at least we didn't use any over-aged players..hahaha..we're good in our own way guys..

next mission for me..COMMON TEST...*dikir out of my mind for i dono how long*

so..let's sail on a new mission..

*performing with my frens are way fun...ahhaah

2006-11-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

TEAM. . . .

no i . . .

no u . . .

it's we . . us . . them . . .

Simple message: the spelling of team is T-E-A-M...no I...no U...

take it in..absorb..use it in ur evryday life..

yours truthfully...

][ dandan ][

2006-10-31T23:46:00.000+08:00

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	High
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Medium
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

wow!! no low..all medium and high!! sloth and greed??? yeah dats me! hheeeh..

*missing her...

2006-10-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

wells..just when i thought it's all over..a new one comes up..
yes..i'm mentioning abt PW..promos was hell to me..got out of that..
but PW serves to be another hell..well..gotta get thru with it..
OP on 8 nov..first day..cool..n we're presenting in front of our own class..that's cool..hehe

anw...things have not been that good lately..
still here n there but nowhere...
hope things will work out..
hopefully la..coz im so tired of it..

[ it's kinda hazy at my neighbourhood..heard there's a new forest fire in Sumatra??!!! HAIZZ...won't they stop?!! ]

2006-09-26T12:18:00.000+08:00

well..promos has started..the pain,torture,hurt!! evrything!!
its here!! really!! damn...how im gonna get thru this..
anw..no paper today..so yah..resting at home..
had GP ytd..it was manageable la..except im gonna flunk for vocab..
hmm..well..its all down to fate and my hardwork for goodness sake..
to allow me to go to yr 3..haizz..why am i not doin anything~!!!!

well..exams aside..things have goin rocky i guess this past few days..
pple are stressed up..n a smile would just do nice..
no talking crap,no crazying ard..coz..u wouldnt know when u might irritate someone..hahah

okey..dats all..looking forward to 4th october..[..where it all ends..]

*miss u dearie..do well for ur exams okey..

2006-09-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

yoohoo~!

yesterday went to mediacorp for titian minda 06..congrats of the congratulations to NABZZ for achieving the best debator award..international event mind u..wakakak!! talented la..haha.
well..besides dat..had time with the peoples of all people ytd..ahah..long time no see..let the rindu go free!! wakakak!! n not forgetting dat i got to see her after abt 3 days w/o seeing each other..

today..well..did nothing basically..wanted to study.but yeah..u know the rest.slept abit in the afternoon..heheh.waiting to watch carlos tevez n javier mascherano playing in WEST HAM colours tonite..see wat magic they can do.weehhe..well.. all thanks to veron for giving bad impression of manchester united.coz of dat..the duo went to west ham..IDIOT!..

guess dats all for now..till tmr..cya!

*miss u dear!* [promo:2 weeks!!] oh man!

2006-09-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

wat wrong has a child who have juz been born into this world...
had her life taken away without even knowing her purpose of being sent to this world..
it clearly shows dat Allah s.b.t will not care if ur young,old,fully fit,or sick..
when its time..its time..

the loss of a loved one..
puts me to tears..
time to move on..
she's in heaven..
may Allah s.b.t give much patience to the parents of the child..

~live life to the fullest..love ur loved ones..rmb..He don't give a chance~

~dandan~

2006-09-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

~so long nv blog eh..ahaha! din realise..~

tmr got show @ expo..hhehe..excited abit..
first performance of coz lidat la..
but we knew it today only..like so last minit ah!
wakakak!
hope it all turn out well ah..

][.S A S.][

hmm..life have been as usual..ups downs lefts rights..
normal la..
kinda worried about promos since its juz ard the corner..
focus focus!! wahahah
haiz..can exams not be this cruel??!!

wells...dats life at its best..!!!!!

~dandan~

2006-08-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

didnt go sch today..too tired to wake up..woke up at 7am..so like wats the point of going..so i slept back..hehe..awang belanga is over..finally!! but sure there will be a "sense of unbelonging" because im used to going for practices after school..well..guess its timeto put my head down and study for the exams..hopefully i'll do well..if not..just wish me the best of luck if i don make it to year 3..well..i'll have to work hard..dowan to put 2 yrs in MI to waste..well..

i hope i'll get thru my motor license quick coz i really want a bike..ahhaha..

*missing u so much dear..hope to see u tmr.muax!*

2006-08-13T18:55:00.000+08:00

orite..been days since i blogged..
i feel so tired these days..
ending school late..plus drama practice..
WAH!!
it's taking its toll on me oreadi..
falling sick soon..[hopefully i won't]
and Awang Belanga abt 2 weeks away..
wat can i say..
the tide is against us..
hahah!!
but nvm..things should get better..i hope..
still got studies to catch up too..
i need a miracle to pass my exams n clear to year 3..
well..it's all up to hard work..

2006-08-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

take ur time to read this piece pple..

when things don't go ur way..
everyone goes against u..
when things go ur way..
everyone goes..
WOW!!
THAT"S GOOD!!
UR THE BEST!!
but..
guess pple only rmb wat is bad instead of the good things..
well..
that's all i guess..

asilah-->dis is not for u..im generalising things rite now..don worry..
it's wat my heart speaks..

2006-08-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

i was hit by a tidal wave..
i admit it..
i'm at fault..
i'm sorry..
i've hurt u..
i told u to leave me..
but u won't..
i know u love me..
i love u as much..
i know u don't want to lose me..
neither do i..
well..
who said it's easy being in a relationship??

"SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD!"

[sorry..emo jap ah!!]

2006-07-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

wahahaha..looking forward to parent's meeting session with the teachers..so gonna be dead ah..i placed my own head on the chopping block..only 2 AO passes n no other..i gotta be kidding..

its my own fault i guess..F for maths..F for chem..AO for acc..B4 for malay..F9 for GP..all add up to spell DEAD!!

anw..looking forward to my theory lessons this coming sunday..prepared for it i guess...4 theory lessons in one day,,8am to 330pm..dats long i guess..n next sunday is practical lesson 1.01..wahaha..so excited..

i started playing HERO Online..its an online game..kinda good ah..well not the time for games i guess..

anw..to that gerl sitting beside me now in the com lab..
-4.28pm Monday
I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!!

MUAX!!

2006-07-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

exams finally over!!
time to relax a while..n yes i do mean a while..
blackbox..bulan bahasa..so many things so little time..
n promos wont be too far away i guess..

guess im gonna flung my mid year papers..
it was expectedy hard ah..
tried my best anw..hope at least got one distinction..
haha...dreams..never fail to reach me..

anw...

"Without u..all im gonna be is INCOMPLETE!!!"

regards,
-dandan-

2006-07-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

just finished accounts paper!!
blew the hell out of it!!
gonna die! die!
first qn was oreadi a mystery to me!

glad it was over..
something happen in the exam room..
a girl fell off her chair..
dono wat happened..
guess she was sleeping and fell off it lah..
haha..wanna laugh but it was too serious to laugh..
so nvm..

maths paper next week...
hahah..
die die..
will try but no promises mr soh!!

till then..gd bye frens!!

2006-06-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

im feeling so down..
yea...
u attacked me with all ur might..
not dat im complaining..
but..
but....
i know i cheated..
i lied..
i was not thinking..
i know i wasn't fair..
u deserve to have my head..
on the chopping block..
kill me..
chop off my head..
let me die..
plsss..
im begging u..

*nurasilah shahzan..nv i wanted to do this to u..but im only full of regrets n guilt..im sorri..*

2006-06-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!

8 days to mid year exams n i haven't even did much revision..does it spell the end of my pre-u years..
yah..it's all in my hands now..hope that Allah will be there for me too..
malay,maths,chem,accounts!!! wat more can u ask for...
topics from year 1 included..dead dead dead!!

gonna squeeze all my brain juice in the remaining days to mid years..endless studying..
late night studying..watever i need to just get thru mid year with a pass!!
haiz..may the force be with me..

missed my baby soo much..adding to the missing factor..can't sms her..haiz..
but nvm..more months ahead where i will see her for like evryday!!
hahah..anw..good luck to evryone who is gonna face the wrath of the mid year exams..
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH U!!

2006-06-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

sometimes we're apart..sometimes we're near..
and when we're apart is the time when feelings do come true..
not to say that i don't like being near but..
it's just the feeling that excites me..

BONE GERL..
when ur away..i've no one beside me..
thoughts of u raced past my brain so quickly..
hard to catch every moment i had with u..
so..yah..ur missed badly BONEY..

my BONEY lies in the streets..
i picked it up..
keep it in my RED refrigerator..
and that's where it'll stay..

2006-06-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

haiz...tired..drained..exhausted..evrything got to do with these 3 words..is what best describe me today..haha!! MCS practice was tiring..alot to improve on obviously..no one said acting was easy..gotta learn from the PROGOLs..hehee..
________________________________________________________________________
anw..BONE GERL goin to terengganu tmr..haiz haiz..missing missing missing..cannot msg summore..haiyah!! come back quick will ya??! nak menggatal ngan mat malaysia pegi la..haha!! i'll be good boi here okey..promise!!

okey BONE GERL..don notti2 okey..gonna miss u!!

MUAAXXX!!!
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2006-06-14T11:00:00.000+08:00

went to pahlawan beach with asilah ytd.[thanks for the time syg] rained a little at around 2 to 3.went to eat at harbourfront centre mcdonald's till 530.head for dikir training.reached cc at ard 630..waited for the rest..had a good time singing-shouting.hehehe..well dat's all for yesterday..gonna have dikir training today too..hehe..

orite..take care evryone..june holidays gonna be over soon..boohoohooo!!!

2006-06-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

tired.back hurts.rewang was so tiring today..plates and bowls mounting up like mountains.mann...nv expected today's rewang to bo tiring..well.dats how hard things will be..in nd of $$$ anw..so shud not complain anymore..haha..

fairoz taufik farid nasser salleh daffi were all there at nash's bro wedding..filled with hindi songs..we "played" with water all day..satisfaction guaranteed as job well done by evryone..

*anw NURASILAH..i realli miss u tau.do come back quickly okey..will spend more time with u b4 u depart for terengganu k syg..awaiting ur return from bahas camp..*

2006-06-10T02:28:00.000+08:00

well..today was fine except didn't had time to see other half.went kfc with uddyn,res and aisyah.and den watch a singapore arts festival show:Geisha at Victoria Theatre.kinda boring i guess..so much "eeeooiioouuiiiooo"[some sounds made by this jap guy playing their guitar]..nearly fell asleep halfway thru..damn draggy ah!!!

went to lau pa sat after the show..ate with the rest..didn't have enough money so uddyn treated me to roti john..hehe..*thanks uddyn and sadiq for the satay!!*...

suddenly evryone realised dat it was late n so we rushed la..haha

reached home.watched germany-costa rica game..germany won 4-2..big deal!!! they look vulnerable anw..well..World Cup juz started..now dats fun.hehe

*miss u loads baby.gd luck for ur bahas quarters okey..won't be there to see u i guess.we'll see okey..*

2006-06-08T13:28:00.000+08:00

things..
doesn't seems like it is
ups and downs
never was it as i wanted

things..
will take its twist and turns
somewhere..somehow
us as humans
will have to deal with it

things..
will always change